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First Blog Ever/ Spiritual Awakening as a Single Mom

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Updated: Jul 16, 2023


You're still amazing! You're just breaking out of the toxicity, and that takes time.


I sit in my bed as my son falls asleep, between parenting my children, advocating for them, protecting them from the cold world, cooking for them, taking them to emergency appointments, loving them, attending school meetings, still loving them, coaching their sports, and mostly enjoying every moment I can. While running a business, with extremely high hopes,. The unseen trajectory of success (God showed it to me, it's pretty big and I have to trust him) so we will just keep at it! The journey might not be easy butit's just worth it and I'm not alone, I have my kids, sister, God, and a few who cheer me on from the sidelines.


As a single mom, I want to be there for my children. Yet to break the generational curses, I must heal my inner child, learn about consciousness, compare scripture verses and waver between my worldly side and my spiritual side. Which is healing the scarcity mind set and guarding from the the mean world, and trying not to add more darkness to it. Identifying the unhealed parts of myself that curated from those who were hurtful, judgmental, critical or envious. I rely heavily on God, for the strength to not let my worldly approach take handle of the situation. Instead God sees how pure all my moves are, which ones need more work, and assure that my intentions are honest. As Iintegrity is my most valuable asset.


With my testimony, a breakthrough, and ability to hold myself accountable, I've paid my debt. No need to make anyone else pay theirs, or force them to apologize. As it is.. I'm just sharing how this journey is, because the success on this path is more abundant, less painful, a bit uncomfortable at times, yet so much more satisfying than its opposite.


This journey had literally been the most earth shaking, skin crawling, heart warming, mind breaking, soul stretching experience of spirituality and self discovery. With two kids in the mix, working out, keeping up with the business, bills, managing my daughters mental health, and my sons enhanced anxiety, giving them the space to feel safe to share their emotions after witnessing the worlds darkness. They have the safe space to be, to grow, to be loved protected and respected in our home.


Sometimes you can't just stop life, get off, go to a spiritual retreat and come back completely healed. Yes actually you could. Presence, peace, mindfulness, meditation, prayer, education, and the COVID shutdown was a great kickoff

to this experience.


My children have seen me ugly cry too many times, but they get to see a more healed version of myself. Watched me heal through trauma and unlearn narcissistic behaviors from my mother. Going from one extreme to the opposite, to the healthier happier median.


I'm in a situation that I have to do everything on my own, as I realize how powerful my words are, how cyclic the trauma was, I developed and created the "alone" part. Yet, God explained to me that by doing it this way I am building my foundation specifically for us and his good. Changing from victim to victor. All the single Moms and Dads out there can relate. The time I wish I could go into the bathroom to cry, or sit with God, or read more books to get more answers, I've spent many late nights sitting in this exact position, while my son cuddles next to me asleep, the daughter upstairs dancing to her music. In this present moment, I am thankful for the experiences and this makes a perfect place to write and post my first blog. Even if I have others with better topic points or more suitable steps to healing.


The purpose of writing this first blog is to jump out of my comfort zone. I truly want to be the most honest, ugly honest and pretty honest person I could be with my testimony. Either way it's honest! And show how capable it is to everyone else in the same position as me, of finding their purpose, still living in life, healing trauma, and spiritually awakening, makes you super human.


ITS SO WORTH IT THOUGH!!

keep Going Momma, or Mr Dad! You've got this! And here, in this place... we get to be part of each other's journey, together, not alone, experiencing life, I get to coach lots of people in creating a better life experience. I'm simply showing you in the making.

You are going to laugh, cry, take a bathroom breaks.. Whatever you need to. I hope you heal.


God bless

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